I just need to write today. Not sure about what yet, but I am hoping that as I type the words will just flow through my fingers and onto my screen.
There is one thing I have been meaning to blog about for a few days now. My friend Lord Christian has a new song coming out February 11! Its called Poisonous Love and from the sample I heard it is going to be fantastic! I am already addicted to it and cannot wait to download His song onto my Itunes so I can listen to it over and over again! I encourage you to do the same! He is an amazingly talented guy and is finally reaching His dreams and goals. I am excited for him and I hope that he is super successful in all he does! Good luck Lord Christian!
Here is the link to the sample of his song and his facebook page! Check it and Him out! http://ow.ly/hbA45 http://facebook.com/LordChristianMusic
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Utah Here I Come!
In a few weeks I will be starting on another adventure in the great land of Utah. I am proud to say that I am actually excited to be moving back to my old home of 4 years. I am so grateful to have a job as a nanny for a family I love. Going back however has made me really nervous and very aware of my past.
I am not exactly thrilled with how I acted while I was in High School. Looking back I have realized that I was a total snob and I was too busy sticking my nose in the air to realize how lucky I was and ruining my chance to really enjoy my life out there. As I go back I am hoping to be a different person and try to have the good time I missed out on when my family was there. I refuse to dwell on the fact that I am not from Utah and the fact that I am not in California anymore. That was the past and this is the present; where I need to be living. Sometimes I feel like Uncle Rico from Napoleon Dynamite. I am that person who constantly dwells on what could have happened and what didn't because of the way things played out. That won't be me anymore. I feel like I need to make a formal apology to all of those I came across in Utah. I feel terrible about my poor attitude and for not trying to make myself more at home. As I go back I hope to be more approachable and more fun to be around. And since I am choosing to be out there I will not be whining about how much I miss everything. That is just annoying and nobody wants to hear that. I want to be more like my little sister, making friends wherever she is and consequently loving anywhere she lives.
Part of this new beginning means making new friends. Being in college has really shown me how bad I am at getting out of my bubble and actually talking to people I don't already know. It is my goal to go out there and try to be outgoing and make new friends: I think this is what I am most terrified for. Because I am so bad at this I am scared I will just be sitting at home alone bored every day. Just being out of school has shown me that I thrive on the social life and if I don't have that then I end up wandering around the house all day and accomplishing nothing. I hate the feeling of knowing I have no one I can call to hang out with.
Along with this move comes the snow.... yay. Actually since living in Idaho I have come to like the snow a little bit more (little bit). Yes it is cold, but who says I have to go hangout in it? Also there is such thing a big jackets! I will still probably stay away from boots and good snow shoes though. My feet will still be cold but hey at least I will still look good! :P On the bright side though, I think snow is so pretty and Idaho winter has been much colder than any I have experienced in Utah so I am excited for the "warmer" weather.
One thing I am really stoked about though is the part where I get to play "mom" and "older sister" to these kids. I am excited to be someone they can look to for help and someone they can have some fun with. Now if you know me at all you know that I can't wait to have a family of my own. I see this experience as practice for getting up early, making breakfast, and getting my own kids off to school one day. Along with that though is entertainment. It's a good thing that pinterest came along. I have been worrying about how I am going to keep these kids busy while they are home. Then I remembered this great invention! I will definitely be making my own board of fun things for little kids and pre-teens to try. I can't wait to get out there and have some fun with these awesome kids!
So here is to starting over, making new friends, learning to love the snow and appreciate the above 0 degree weather, and having some fun! :)
I am not exactly thrilled with how I acted while I was in High School. Looking back I have realized that I was a total snob and I was too busy sticking my nose in the air to realize how lucky I was and ruining my chance to really enjoy my life out there. As I go back I am hoping to be a different person and try to have the good time I missed out on when my family was there. I refuse to dwell on the fact that I am not from Utah and the fact that I am not in California anymore. That was the past and this is the present; where I need to be living. Sometimes I feel like Uncle Rico from Napoleon Dynamite. I am that person who constantly dwells on what could have happened and what didn't because of the way things played out. That won't be me anymore. I feel like I need to make a formal apology to all of those I came across in Utah. I feel terrible about my poor attitude and for not trying to make myself more at home. As I go back I hope to be more approachable and more fun to be around. And since I am choosing to be out there I will not be whining about how much I miss everything. That is just annoying and nobody wants to hear that. I want to be more like my little sister, making friends wherever she is and consequently loving anywhere she lives.
Part of this new beginning means making new friends. Being in college has really shown me how bad I am at getting out of my bubble and actually talking to people I don't already know. It is my goal to go out there and try to be outgoing and make new friends: I think this is what I am most terrified for. Because I am so bad at this I am scared I will just be sitting at home alone bored every day. Just being out of school has shown me that I thrive on the social life and if I don't have that then I end up wandering around the house all day and accomplishing nothing. I hate the feeling of knowing I have no one I can call to hang out with.
Along with this move comes the snow.... yay. Actually since living in Idaho I have come to like the snow a little bit more (little bit). Yes it is cold, but who says I have to go hangout in it? Also there is such thing a big jackets! I will still probably stay away from boots and good snow shoes though. My feet will still be cold but hey at least I will still look good! :P On the bright side though, I think snow is so pretty and Idaho winter has been much colder than any I have experienced in Utah so I am excited for the "warmer" weather.
One thing I am really stoked about though is the part where I get to play "mom" and "older sister" to these kids. I am excited to be someone they can look to for help and someone they can have some fun with. Now if you know me at all you know that I can't wait to have a family of my own. I see this experience as practice for getting up early, making breakfast, and getting my own kids off to school one day. Along with that though is entertainment. It's a good thing that pinterest came along. I have been worrying about how I am going to keep these kids busy while they are home. Then I remembered this great invention! I will definitely be making my own board of fun things for little kids and pre-teens to try. I can't wait to get out there and have some fun with these awesome kids!
So here is to starting over, making new friends, learning to love the snow and appreciate the above 0 degree weather, and having some fun! :)
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